We think that the ultimate expression of our core essence is the dissolution of both our ego and consequent ‘pain body’. As this happens the core expands outwards to incorporate our entire energy field, which then is filled with and emits golden light (using High Sense Perception).
Until we inhabit this state of being permanently, we can get a taste of it by expressing aspects of our core – either aspects we have developed through the Funicular technique or qualities such as LoveJoy, Energy of Gratitude and Energy of Blessings. When we do this without ego it feels like something divine is flowing through us and has a sense both of surrender and expansion. Indeed, the journey of self-mastery could be seen as a reversal of energy flow. We start from our conditioned egoic existence pulling energy towards us like an insatiable black hole wanting our desires met but never being fully satisfied. As we progress, we begin to embody our core, and we radiate our essence like a sun or ‘white hole’ as one participant put it.
Ultimately we can’t enjoy the expression of core essence; rather, we become the enjoyment. Thus, non-attachment is an important tool – we may experience positive feelings but if we try to hang on to them they are likely to fade and we may become disillusioned. Being non-attached to the feelings allows them to transform into something deeper. Indeed, as we increasingly embody our core essence, we can gain a sense of oneness or wholeness and eventually ‘bliss beyond bliss’ as described in many traditions.